when i met you

Long ago,I never like this life
never have
never will
What I always pray to God was to take away this life Cuz I never need it
I've realized it since I was just a little girl
I've realized that there's something different in me
I never have a purpouse in this life
I never have someone to protect
I never have someone that I can love
and I never have a will to live
But no matter how long I pray to God and no matter how hard I beg to God He never want to take away this life and he never allow me to end it So what should I do now?
I never belong to this world
never..
At that time,
my heart feels like freezing
I don't know where should I go
I lost my destination
I lost my feelings
I lost everything
I can't feel anything anymore
My eye sight was going down
darkness was the only thing that I can see
loneliness keeps filling my heart
my conciusness seems to fade away slowly
but,,hey..I still can see someone in the distance
yeah...
I can see someone coming to me
That person kneeling in front of me,
holding my hand it feels really warm
really calm
then that person whisper something to my ears
telling me to continue to live on
cuz every human has a purpouse in this world
even I will find my purpouse someday
So I have to survivefor the sake of my own life
then that person smile towards me
telling me to stand up
helping me to walk towards the light

at that time I feel really happy
My tears won't stop coming out
and I swear to God I'll never forget that moment
the moment when I feel happy for the first time
the moment when I forget all of the sadness for a while
the moment when I cried not because of the loneliness
the moment when I feel the warmth of friendship
The moment when You told me to become your friend..
That day you gave me the reason to live
The reason that I had searched for a long time
That day you gave me everything
And I don't know how to tell you how happy I am to have someone like you
So ....
Thanks for being my angle, Kev ...
thanks for the memories..


i love this post .
gw dpet post ini dr seseorang .. yg berarti bngt buat gw .
walaupun gw tuh gk berarti apa" buat dy .
kalo seseorang itu merasa postny gw ambil ...
Gw ga mau ambil koq .. gw cm mau punya kenang"an tentang lo .